Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Life is painful

I have turned into a drug junkie. I watch the clock until the time comes to take that next pill. Drugs are beautiful. They make my intolerable life bearable.

I worry a little about becoming dependant on Tylenol or Ibuprofen, but for right now, it means I don't have to bear an unbearable burden of hurt.

Thanks for the drugs.


vigil said...

Ibuprofen is a wonderful drug--so effective and relatively benign and inexpensive.

In the past three years, I've lived with a daily chemical regime that both performs miracles and does long term fatal damage. Odd.

Two of the three drugs I take every day have made the front page of the NY Times in the past year, and yet the damage that follows not taking them is more certain and more quickly fatal.

So. All our strategies are temporary.

It makes me more and more aware of the eternal spirit wrestling through all this mortal stuff--that "I" really am not merely my flesh--and ironically makes me more aware that I really do have infinite time and the point is not to win, but to develop a way of relaxing into the work.

It's interesting and useful to me to read your reflections on your current troubles. You are not alone, as you know.

Jim Cobabe said...

Thank you for sharing your observations. I have thought long about the circumstance that has come upon me, the injustice and unfairness of it all. I count a lot on the assumption that it is all only temporary. I place a great deal of hope on looking forward to feeling better -- sometime. For now, pain is something to live with, and drug ease that burden, so they are something to live with as well. Everything I do seems like a temporary compromise. I live in the hope that the future will bring improvement.

Heaven alone only knows what tomorrow brings.